Hi loves, its been a while since I’ve done a bit of a life update, and I feel like now is as good a time as any. I also wanted to touch on wanting to do the best you can in life, and the pressure we put ourselves under to do this.
So as a blogger right now, in this moment (or an influencer as its called these days), I am enjoying every moment, I have worked with so many amazing brands and made virtual and actual friends with some amazing girls, blogging babes & and non blogging babes. But what I find really hard is the constant niggling feeling I must do better. My main two goals right now are to write more (on my blog), and to also redesign my blog while I am at it.
I have a few problems here, 1. I barely find enough time to do what I do now, which is create content and post it on Instagram (as I have a full time job). However I love writing and for my future development/career it is important that I show brands what I can do, and that I can write.
2. I am no web designer, luckily my fiancee is, however I already feel lots of guilt when he spends so much time already, taking my pictures and watching me sit on my phone, hour after hour, night after night. However he’s amazing and I know what he will say ‘don’t be silly I will do what you need me to do so I you can follow your dreams’.
All we are really taking about here is prioritising, I have come to a stage in my blogging life where I want to do something different, a rut some would call it, so here I am writing down my new priorities and what I’m going to do to achieve my goals.
And yes I did say something about following my dreams. This is not something I have dared say to many people out loud, and certainly not in the public domain like I am doing right now! But yes I have decided that eventually I want to be a blogger full time, not for a few years yet, and I have lots of work to do to get there first, but I have made my mind up and I am not afraid to talk about it. I will work as hard as possible to make this dream a reality, as scary and as hard as it seems.
I guess what I do need to be is kinder to myself, I am so consistent and so determined in both blogging and everything else in my life. Because I have that down (and man am I good at it) I can be so very hard on myself with everything else. I have a little voice in my head saying ‘get your shit together Grace’ like I forget how only a few years ago I really didn’t have my shit together, and couldn’t image that I would ever have my life this ‘together’.
So I guess what I am trying to say is that you can expect a redesigned blog coming your way over the next couple of months, & lots more blog writing. I think for me the last few months has been a realisation that actually these two years of hard work could pay off, and I could actually be a full time blogger one day. Often we are too scared to take the plunge and do something we have only ever dreamed of, but if we don’t, how will we ever know if it will work!
I’m hugely excited and scared, and I know I have a lot of hard work coming my way, but I am already two years into it, I know what hard work is, so bring it on!!